Nobody Cares

Just decent and unworthy

It's not on me to impose on your journey.

If I were to tell you, you would nod and pretend,

But understandably, you’d go on uncaring about my pitiful loose end.

Nobody cares.

Shut up

Nobody wants to catch my bitter tears in a cup.

Keep the falsely forged smile.

Let them go on with their life for a while.

Nobody cares.

I’m an invisible fly on the wall

Just another character to them all.

A sidekick or less

Somebody who nobody needs to assess.

Nobody cares.

A couple of A’s, never mind.

It is unimportant if I am kind.

Another breakthrough, what does it matter?

The next person just won, and it's my job to flatter.

Nobody cares.

I just need to push it down

Where my scalding pain and success can't be found.

If I tell, I come off as vain,

Their ensuing thoughts of me would be marred by bane.

Nobody cares.

But why do I feel as if inside me, something's broken?

Is this a nightmare from which I can be woken?

Laugh, laugh. Hide the smoldering pain,

Hopefully, soon, this feeling will wane.

Nobody cares.

Stuff it all deeper,

Hide my success and failure behind a censoring bleeper.

As I keep burying and burying,

My pockets overflow, divulging the emotion I am carrying.

Nobody cares.

I sprint, leap, and chase myself into a comforting seclusion.

Tumbling tears ruin my carefully crafted illusion.

Sing louder with a ring ding ding,

A veil of joy masks the sting

Because still, nobody cares.

But…But somebody does care.

Nobody is the one who cares.

He always checks up on my affairs.

My ride or die

To whom I don’t have to lie.

Nobody cares.

But now I think my sanity has gone black

For I am talking to Nobody, and Nobody is talking back.

I don’t know up from down

I'm an over-stuffed bear with sewn lips that can't frown.

Nobody cares.

Now, I can converse and share my thoughts,

For Nobody, my friend, can see through the confident facade I wrought.

He compliments my tie with a knowing glance,

We smile as we sway in a mutual dance.

Nobody cares.

Perched in a tree, we chat and sip on rich tea.

Despite having a new friend, I feel alone in the depths of the turbulent dark sea.

I lean forward to bestow him a friendly hug,

But from my gut, all I feel is a persistent tug.

Nobody cares.

As I fall through his ghostly open embrace,

Nobody vanishes, leaving horror in its place.

I let out a screech, landing hard on my back.

All I hear is my relentless heartbeat, click clack.

Nobody cares.

As I lay there, my mind whirs

A silent promise I make as my vision blurs.

I close my eyes and inspect my emotional reserve,

One day, their care I will make myself deserve.

Everybody will care.